Care and Kindness Matters

I was told I am a humanistic example which is hard for them as they still find it difficult to not hate people.   I often don’t like people either but I always strive to care about them anyway. If I had a requirement of love for or from others first, I would always be careless. I don’t care because I always feel emotionally compelled too,, rather I do it instead as it is the right thing to do, not just for my humanity but everyone​ who interacts with me or my writing; I feel that responsibility to be a better me. I stopped needing a individual reason from others and started using the humanity reason that is of benefit to the world. Even up to a couple of years ago I had to learn that I could not act the same around or with everyone. I am from southern california and was raised in areas that had a steady threat of gang or other violence and so I became very aggressive in nature already being a angry youth as I experienced injustice and abuse at home. I use to say fuck s much it was like other words where just added for flavor. I was not an excessive bully ever but I was not always nice and did often look for a fight myself. I was so in to fighting that in the 7 grade alone I was suspended I believe like 23 times to there for a long time I think the rest of the year I had to ride in a little but all by my self....