My struggle, has always been my life path, like it or not, I have little choice, who does…

Agnostic? Never. I was a full believer until 35. Then a hard atheist from then to now at 50.  I am easygoing but tough, I just bravely take on all issues. I see my work as helping people think more and deeper. I do not care what people believe as their personal beliefs unless they harm others. I am striving to make everyone think more, that is my main goal rather than one thing. Even ones that agree with all I believe. I strive to learn more until I die. I am a truth seeker. I welcome being wrong if it makes me accept the truth. 

See, I also understand philosophy well, so, faith is like wishing not much else. I do not value such a non-evidence and un-reasoned justification, or quality lacking strategy as to believe anything on faith. Because faith lacks value in trying, to actually know things.

Faith to me is the ego talking to the mind saying I want to like something, and I do not care if I have to add wishful thinking or magical thinking to achieve this. So, a faith supporter will say, I am going with the ego-champion for all unsupported beliefs not presentable in reality, FAITH. Faith is the wonder drug that turns unjustified blind beliefs into fully and strongly believed beliefs on faith alone, an EGO win for sure. 

Thus, can you as well not see the folly of faith as evidence or support? What do you think could not be claimed on faith alone as it seems anything unbelievable runs to faith to get beliefs from people where no one would rightly believe this without FAITH. “Faith” itself is a delusion illusion hallucination of the epistemic status of claims so faith is of no use in understanding reality. 

All religions use faith to claim all kinds of things the other religions do not agree with but also use faith to believe contradictory things to others’ faith choices, faith is not reliable to trust to begin with. 

I use Twitter and Instagram because that is all I have left, I am permanently blocked on Facebook (where I first became known, and still am famous) for my politics, and on LinkedIn where I showed philosophers, academics, archaeologists, and historians my knowledge and skills until they banned me permanently as well, I am all about activism and inspiring, enlightening as well as empowering others. 

Was my life NORMAL?

Well, I wish to highlight one wild story that may give you an idea of my life. So, I was extremely abused from 7 to 13 mainly by my father and at 15 or 14 I can’t remember I was at a crack house I hung out at as they (a Mexican gang chick, I am friends with, and her mom), that ran a small crack house, that was like a private club. 

I was the big crazy dude, with big knives, I liked using on people as a reputation, so, I was given free crack, food, and drink if I protect the crack house as an enforcer. Anyway, we are all in there, about 6 people, and there is a knock at the door. We are all high on crack, and we know no one is to ever knock, you are either expected and brought by someone or you did not come.

So, we all freaked, COPS!!!

I look out the window curtain to see my mom with a birthday cake. I feel odd, how am I this high? But there she was, I say, “It’s my mom…” They are somewhat relieved, NOT COPS. Then they say, “go out there and make her leave…” So, I did, my mom said I followed you to see where you have been staying almost a year on and off only coming home to sleep. I wanted to give them this cake to thank them for taking care of you. So, yeah, my mom came to the crack house with a cake, you know, NORMAL…

Someone messaged me, rudely saying, “I need to remove all my fake 8,000 followers as I only get 2 to 10 likes, so I don’t have people who like my posts.” We argued and after I asked him if he was a good person, he said I was rude and blocked me. lol

All I do online is activism, to me. I don’t post even, one post, to get likes, ever. I post what I feel, not caring about if it makes you hit like. I get that I am more, than most people, but I am not trying to make you like me. I want to help inspire you to think for yourself and feel empowered. I do my online activities with the goal of changing the world. We rise by helping each other.

Kindness until the end? 

We are always changing, everything is just hard to see, the growth when you plant the seed looks like no growth at all. I can see, we must plant hoping for growth we may never see. But rejoice, because our actions of love, compassion, and kindness add beauty to the darkness in the world, so, never stop, please… Just keep loving, it all matters. 

EGO is often the wall, that blocks our freedom. I mean many things can block our freedom but often it is the fault of our worshiping our EGO that is the problem. “Do you know the difference between guilt and shame?”  Yes, I lived both. I actually use shame as a tool in battling bullies. I use a style I created called a “dignity attack”, like my asking a bully, “Are you a good person?” 

*Utilizing Dignity: strategic dignity attacks or dignity enrichments (only used if confusion happens or resistance is present): 

Asking the right questions at the right time with the right info can also change minds, you can’t just use facts all on their own. Denial likes consistency, the pattern of thinking cannot vary from a fixed standard of thinking, or the risk of truth could slip in. Helping people alter skewed thinking is indeed a large task but most definitely a worthy endeavor. 

“Projection is the process of displacing one’s feelings onto a different person, animal, or object.” 

My response, I also use projection as a tool in aiding understanding or confusion. I speak what they are feeling or should feel and this mirroring from my understanding can add to the understanding of others. I do this often, in the street doing activism. I also tell others, what a possible thinking is, that I know they don’t understand, but if nudged thoughtfully, can accept this projection of new ideas. As you may guess, I am skilled in psychology and sociology, that was what my college was about but also I am skilled in intervention into the bad thinking of others and how to motivate change in people not desiring change. 

Why would you even want Traditional America, back? 

Racism is traditional in America, it was the democrat’s first, that were more racist, remember, but after the move, to civil rights, things changed, and ever since then republicans, but for some, who seem to resist racism, not many openly, but some, like bush jr., even though, I still don’t like him.

The right wants Tradicional America, and that was when sexism, racism, and homophobia were terrorizing others, the most strongly. They look for a future of “white Christian heterosexism” with anti-trans bigotry on full display, not to mention, the theocratic subjugation of America. I just want equality and freedom. How about you? 

Some Anarchists burn FLAGS 

Not me, they are powerless and mean little to me but a learned box of culturally programmed identity or I get people don’t like thinking for themselves, I feel for them. 

I do not, really care, about flags, but the nationalism bigotry that can be inside their area of reference, like how nations are seen as of different unequal value for many varied reasons. However, this oppression of humanity also inspires human devaluation, which happens just by seeing a certain flag, as if any humans are different humans due to birthplace. I don’t care.

Multimodality is my style… 

“The appearance of multimodality, at its most basic level, can change the way an audience perceives information.” https://lnkd.in/epUjPxD 

To me, we both, assess’ then ‘advise’, and then assess’ their response to it, and then ‘advise’ again, back and forth, or at the same time, all the time, if we are truly aware, as WE get no human is fixed… 

I Hate Abuse 

I starved as a child, out of child abuse, and even ate half-edible grass and barries. Once in a while, dog food, if my dad left it out for the dog. I started breaking into the neighbor’s houses, to steal food, to eat as I got older.

I would also ask friends, to let me see their house, all the while, hoping to steal food from their house. I was beaten, so bad, by my father, with a big piece of wood (2×4) my tailbone is still crushed, it hurts to sit too long, even at 49 and I think it happened at 9 years old. 

I have known a life of pain and struggle.

We fight bigotry by showing a mental health issue is not the person. As I said before, as a sociopath (due to extreme child abuse, my PTSD result) I often hear my mental health problems used as a label of shame when it is not true that all sociopaths must be the terrible things, they attach to my mental health label. I say it openly and often so people can see that just because of my mental health issues, does not have to mean, I am a bad person.

By the way, feel free to tell anyone, everything about me, if you think it can help someone. I use myself, and my open life, as activism, and education to help.

I get strong PTSD but more in aggressive situations. I experienced extreme child abuse so my stuff it more about dealing with feelings of violence, desires to act badly, or anger/rage behavior. I feel the most disturbing when aggressively attacked or violent potential in strong approaches all can make me feel like a fugue state of PTSD. It is a task to keep me from not reaching my limits and I use to not be able to control myself as a youth but I can manage myself most of the time as an adult (after years of counseling) and when I can’t do as well, I just leave so I don’t do anything wrong. I used to fear myself. Now I have control.

“Dissociative fugue, formerly fugue state or psychogenic fugue, is a mental and behavioral disorder classified as a Dissociative disorder and a Dissociative [conversion] disorder. Additionally, an episode of fugue is not characterized as attributable to a psychiatric disorder if it can be related to the ingestion of psychotropic substances, to physical trauma, to a general medical condition, or to dissociative identity disorder, delirium, or dementia. Fugues are precipitated by a series of long-term traumatic episodes. It is most commonly associated with childhood victims of sexual abuse who learn over time to dissociate memory of the abuse (dissociative amnesia). Symptoms of a dissociative fugue include mild confusion and once the fugue ends, possible depression, grief, shame, and discomfort. People have also experienced a post-fugue anger. Another symptom of the fugue state can consist of loss of one’s identity. As the person experiencing a dissociative fugue may have recently suffered the reappearance of an event or person representing an earlier life trauma, the emergence of an armoring or defensive personality seems to be for some, a logical apprehension of the situation. Therefore, the terminology “fugue state” may carry a slight linguistic distinction from “dissociative fugue”, the former implying a greater degree of “motion”. For the purposes of this article, then, a “fugue state” occurs while one is “acting out” a “dissociative fugue.” ref

I used my weaknesses, even who I am as a sociopath, to work for the benefit of ALL? 

I am largely a high-functioning sociopath due to extreme abuse from 7 to 13, by my father mainly. I am not an extravert. I am neutral, not shy nor do I have to be the center of attention. But as a sociopath, I feel nothing, talking in front of others as I start with a general personality that no one’s opinions are more important than mine, and I love me deeply, and I always have my back. I don’t feel much at all like the volume of life is turned down so I am never affected as hard as others in similar experiences, even if horrible, it is manageable. 

I actually would not even be in the public on any social media as I don’t feel close to people and would just say in my small world unknown, but I realized I am good enough to make a worldwide difference. So, I felt being as out publicly was a needed form of activism. I was brave enough to do almost anything as a sociopath. Thus, I am doing all this for others as a gift of my humanity trying to help all I can. 

I do activism as an expression of my humanity. Did I choose Activism over Wealth starting 2006? 

I was in college to be a mental health therapist, which I would have enjoyed. Unlike the shit, I have to endure as the out activist, like I am now. In fact, I would likely be financially well off but instead, I chose humanity and possible poverty if needed in order to help change the world as much as I can. It was the work mistake of my life but the proudest thing I have ever done in my life. We rise by helping each other. Pain of the mind is some of the most lasting pain just as freedom of the mind is some of the most lasting freedom. May I be someone who can make anyone feel like someone of value. Human-Kind. Be both… 

What about you? Are you married?

My response, Yes, I am married to a cis-woman that is also genderqueer in her thinking and I have an open marriage, so, I sometimes enjoy other women and my wife knows. I don’t have any children, but my wife has a daughter, she has a daughter as well, thus, I have a stepdaughter (met at 18) and step-granddaughter.  

I am from Southern California born and raised. I lived in Hawaii, Oregon, Washington, Nevada, Texas, Missouri. North Carolina, Indiana, Illinois, Gorga, and Florida. I am currently in the Chicago area of Illinois, and in a year am moving somewhere between Tampa and Orlando, Florida. I hope to retire in Florida.  

What place do you like the best so far, you may ask? 

Well, I like Southern California, but I was born there, so, it will always feel like home to some extent, and I love Florida as I want a “safer” and “slower” area than where I am from, plus it is tax-free. Florida has things I want, like to go fishing, petting zoos, dinner playhouse and the like, visit the Native American reservation in the everglades (see animals/airboat/swamp buggy), erotic dance clubs, and nudist resorts. And the atheists like me better it seems in Florida than in some places I have lived. 

I think Canada is the closest, to my type of atheism, but it’s too cold. I want fewer people and more animals in my life, for sure. People have hurt me way more than they ever helped. I wanted to help and soon I move to make my life way less activism and more me not in the public. I am tired and ready after I publish my book to slip into solitude and peace as much as possible. I need to make more not others time. I have made others my life, starting 2006, and I am tired. 

EGO Lover?

I see the world and all the vile EGO worship it supports, I am ashamed of it all. Who of you is brave enough to kill your EGO with the same glee as me? I am nothing! I am that freak no one ever gave a fuck about, and no, I don’t think you will either. That is right, I am calling out your fantasy YOU in your head, that deluder of truth, you are selfish. You care if it’s not too inconvenient. But I am being unfair, right? You do what you can, right? But, do you? Be honest with yourself, even if not with me. You never really care do you? I get it, it’s a big world, you just want peace, right? Selfishness is an addiction, I thankfully have mastered a little, I still suck, like everyone, but we are all trying, I hope… 

Fight to End Abuse and Injustice 

When I was young and I saw people abused or treated unjustly, I was manly happy it was not me. But as I developed my humanity, I started to thoroughly despise abuse and injustice universally, wishing all abuse and injustice would end. I started to be vocal and compiled through my compassion to join the fight to end abuse and injustice.  

So. now that I have positively changed, I want to promote all the positive pro-social relating and kindness between all people I can; with a hope that they to will join to fight with me to help put an end to abuse and injustice for everyone. Let justice and kindness reign, are you with me?

Defend your atheist Ethical character? 

For court if you feel obligated to “defend your atheist character” as not being religious to many implies something somehow unethical, you could say, I am an atheist but my religion style, though I don’t have one, would be closest considered or connected to humanism or secular humanism more specifically, alternatively, you can say as for a type of religious persuasion, though I don’t have one, would be closest considered or connected to how I am an ethical humanist, a universal ethicist or just ethicist.

Sometimes we have to talk in a language they may understand. Leviticus justice? I think not….. Often the verse, “man has sexual relations with a man They are to be put to death.” ( Leviticus 20:13) a law we shod follow? Well if you are going to you must follow the others right? Leviticus 20: 9 “‘Anyone who curses their father or mother is to be put to death.” Leviticus 20: 10 “‘who commits adultery is to be put to death.” Leviticus 20: 12 “‘If a man has sexual relations with his daughter-in-law, both of them are to be put to death.

Leviticus 20: 14 “‘If a man marries both a woman and her mother, Both he and they must be burned in the fire. Leviticus 20: 18 “‘If a man has sexual relations with a woman during her monthly period, he has exposed the source of her flow. Both of them are to be cut off from their people.” Leviticus 20: 20 “‘If a man has sexual relations with his aunt, they will die childless.” -Crazy to think god stops childbirth.

But how, when 5% of births are the result of incest USA?… such a joke. Lol Leviticus 20: 21 “‘If a man marries his brother’s wife, They will be childless. -Another lie about limiting childbirth. But “‘If a man marries his sister, They are to be publicly removed from their people. Leviticus 20: 17. 

Ethics not god.  

Gods at best are unknown, thus, are irrelevant, so just say NO to divine claimed morals. And to humanity, which we do know, and its human-derived ethics, just say YES. Treating Others Equal as Humans is a Pro-social Behavior. All people are of worth and equal as humans. I see all humans as equal because equal is a positive prosocial behavior and a value status, not a physical state of being thus all can be equal.  

We as humanity must work together as one people and one human race. We can no longer sit back and watch the world burn. We are accountable for the world staying the same thus leading to extended suffering, or change the world to start alleviating suffering. 

For too long we have gotten comfortable with eyes of hate, which only seem to find victims, instead of eyes of love, helping us find friends. I am not calling for fighting for a political party; I am trying to inspire humanitarian flourishing not limited to even a country. As I wish to look to the big picture, that we are all global citizens, and I say it’s time we start acting like it. I, as others, promise to strive to help be the change so needed in this world. Will you join us? 

 We need two things: safety and comfort. 

 We need both in high amounts. And we cannot get both alone. Which is one reason why I say, we rise by helping each other.  We help others and it helps us. It does even if just emotionally. We crave bonding. And we grow to greatness in our helping of each other. May I be such a person of greatness by helping others.  

If the only rights you fight for are your own, then you have a lot to learn about the value of rights. 

Religion has been a reason for violence and harm and at times a promoter of peace. Science does not need to fill the gap of religion. We need to remove it as it was always an abstraction not a realistic “thing to being” with. Not one thing religion offers that is thought of as good that cannot be done by persons not following any religion. 

Atheist generally is simply life with religion removed, all its pseudo meaning as well as pseudoscience, pseudohistory, and pseudo-morality. We have real science, realistic history and can access real morality with a blend of philosophy, anthropology, psychology, sociology, and cognitive science. 

The Mental Parasite Called God?  

God is not simply a myth, it a mental parasite feeding off your life, is like a mental prison concept, disemboweling you, and any religion that supports the concept of god(s), becomes like a controlling jailer to the mind of the god believer. What is love, if it is so cheap, that it is for wholesale to myths? 

To me, it is truly a sad thing, when you have people offer more love to an unknown and at best unproven thing they call god; not even evident in this world, over real people, even loved ones, which are known in this world. Sadly, all too often a mind full of god(s) myths have no appetite for reason. 

I am an anti-religionist, not just an atheist, and here is why summed up in three ideas I am against. And, in which these three things are common in all religions: “pseudo-science”, “pseudo-history”, and “pseudo-morality”. And my biggest thing of all is the widespread forced indoctrination of children, violating their free choice of what to not believe or believe, I hate forced hereditary religion. 

And my biggest thing of all is the widespread forced indoctrination of children, violating their free choice of what to not believe or believe, I hate forced hereditary religion. As well as wish to offer strong critiques regarding the pseudo-meaning of the “three-letter noise” people call “G.o.d” (group originated delusion)! 

“Religion is an Evolved Product” and Yes, Religion is Like Fear Given Wings… 

It seems ancient peoples had to survived amazing threats in a “dangerous universe (by superstition perceived as good and evil),” and human “immorality or imperfection of the soul” which was thought to affect the still living, leading to ancestor worship. 

This ancestor worship presumably led to the belief in supernatural beings, and then some of these were turned into the belief in gods. This feeble myth called gods were just a human conceived “made from nothing into something over and over, changing, again and again, taking on more as they evolve, all the while they are thought to be special,” but it is just supernatural animistic spirit-belief perceived as sacred. 

Quick Evolution of Religion? 

So, it all starts in a general way with Animism (theoretical belief in supernatural powers/spirits), then this is physically expressed in or with Totemism (theoretical belief in mythical relationship with powers/spirits through a totem item), which then enlists a full-time specific person to do this worship and believed interacting Shamanism (theoretical belief in access and influence with spirits through ritual), and then there is the further employment of myths and gods added to all the above giving you Paganism (often a lot more nature-based than most current top world religions, thus hinting to their close link to more ancient religious thinking it stems from). 

Historically, in large city-state societies (such as Egypt or Iraq) starting around 5,000 years ago culminated to make religion something kind of new, a sociocultural-governmental-religious monarchy where all or at least many of the people of such large city-state societies seem familiar with and committed to the existence of “religion” as the integrated life identity package of control dynamics with a fixed closed magical doctrine. 

But this juggernaut integrated religion identity package of Dogmatic-Propaganda certainly did not exist or if developed to an extent it was highly limited in most smaller prehistoric societies as they seem to lack most of the strong control dynamics with a fixed closed magical doctrine (magical beliefs could be at times be added or removed). 

Many people just want to see developed religious dynamics everywhere even if it is not. Instead, all that is found is largely fragments until the domestication of religion.  

Religions, as we think of them today, are a new fad, even if they go back to around 6,000 years in the timeline of human existence, this amounts to almost nothing when seen in the long slow evolution of religion at least around 70,000 years ago with one of the oldest ritual worship. 

This message of how religion and gods among them are clearly a man-made thing that was developed slowly as it was invented and then implemented peace by peace discrediting them all. Which seems to be a simple point some are just not grasping how devastating to any claims of truth when we can see the lie clearly in the archeological sites. 

A Good no One… 

I am the “one” you have been waiting for I am will to power, a deep thought so true it has taken flight to the lofty aspirations dreamed for and a care transmitted to offer hope to humanity I believe in you and will strive to champion you with all I have for you are so worthy…

I am that freak of nature, a power from the anti-power crusaders, warring against the power dynamic to return it back where it belongs- the hands of the people. 

I am a free-thinking invader into the shell of malignancy infecting humanity which strangles reason out of the world. A proud anarchy theorist, I breathe the fire of the heathens, a thought revolutionary and mental freedom fighter. I am a humanist atheist who desires a better world for us all, one that is kinder, more just, and more rational in its pursuits.  

Give Kindness the Glory 

May we all aspire to the greatness of being strong reasoned thinkers with truly strong hearts of kindness. More than just atheists I hope my thinking inspires people to be rationalists who strive to use critical thinking putting reason at the forefront thus as their only master even over their ego. 

As well as from such thoughtfulness may we all see the need for humanism and secularism, respecting all as helpful servant leaders assisting other as often as we can to navigate truth and the beauty of reality. I strive to be and wish for others to be more than just atheists, may we all aspire to the greatness of being strong reasoned thinkers with truly strong hearts of kindness. 

Kindness to Persuade?

I have won people over more, to the beauty of reason, by my kindness, than I ever did with my anger or aggressive attitude. So, be kind and show others the way… How did we let such an emotional sickness become a pandemic and why are so few people seeing any need for the mask or life kindness can be it can shield us from a storm, it is the very thing that keeps us warm, kindness, not much at all. Here is another one of my sad life stories. Let’s just call it the store. 

“The Store” 

For so many there is no place like home. Me, I wanted to be any place but my father’s house. I am not sure how old I was, but I think 11 to 13 years old. I was raised in a very abusive environment and a fundamentalist Christianity cult faith. My father was so religious and strict we could not watch nor movies, almost no music unless god related. No sports, just god. And their rolly-polly book. So you are a little caught up.

We never went almost anywhere as all things generally related to god. Thus when he asked me if I wanted to go and look around the store. And I was thrilled. All the wonderful things. Not that he was even buying anything for me. In my sad life, just looking at things others could buy thrilled me. I was overjoyed when he said at the door of the store, “go on”, as he could see my excitement in my eyes. 

I just stood there. I was not sure if he was kidding. We just looked at each other. Then he said, now run along. I want to be quick. I asked him, dreading him saying, there is no time. I was thinking it is just over there, hopefully, he will let me see a few more beautiful things at the store. This was almost like an amusement park in my sad abused mind. When you truly have next to nothing, everything seems special. 

So he said again go now and hurry up. I was gone. I felt high drifting off among the shelves of toys I would never own but I could dream and I was dreaming a wonderful day and… I realized it was a few minutes. But he had only given me a few minutes. I was scared, as I calmly but with intent. He was right over there, wasn’t he? I felt a dread trickle down me. Wait, was I too long? Had I errored and he was made to look for me? I panic.

My heart is racing, look up at the clock. But I don’t fully understand how to read it. I am the unwanted thing, the bother, the problem. No need to care about Damien. Let that little beast fend for himself. I was thinking I failed to cut off my looking at all the wonderful colors. I am an artist but lived in an art and creativity dessert. 

Just the Bible I could not fully read. I ran outside. I know I will find the car. Relief flooded over me. I speedily pushed past the people trying to get out the door. Free now I can finally look outside. I view the toes of cars. I don’t know what to do. I turn and look back, nothing. Where is my father? I think he is likely worried about where I was, right? I started to doubt. He is very mean to me.

No, he would leave me, that is crazy. I only walked away from him like he said, “a few minutes.” Nothing more. Again I feel as if I have been bad, or done something wrong. I decide I can’t just stand there. So I start walking down the sea of cars. Not having been in many parking lots walking around not making much of it. All the cars and I don’t see mine. I am setting and hot. 

Where is my father? I am dreading almost finding him. I think he is going to be so mad. I think if I go back in the store someone else can help me. But then I looked up and down. I don’t know who I should talk to. I am a child statue, I stand and the adults Flow around me as if a rock in a stream. They don’t even notice me. So I look for someone in charge. I ask someone and they said they would help. I was saved. I was reborn.

I felt great. Then his face darkened. Sorry, kid, I tried him three times on the loudspeaker. Dread anew. I felt cold chills. I started feeling sick. Did he leave me? Then how could he just leave me? I was just stuck in the store. Where could I go what could I do? What did I do to deserve this? There I sit getting hungry and scarred. I was fully alone. Hours went by. I was the crying statue others didn’t even see. It was almost as if I got smaller. 

A bad child in time out. I was morning my sad childhood, when I heard the man who had been ignoring me ever since he had last called for my father. It may have been 3 or so hours. And my father finally called? I first thought I hope he was not mad at me. I eagerly asked what did my father say and when will he be there?

He looks scared, what is wrong? Is be hurt? Your father said he decided to go home he had things to work on. He can’t come right now but in an hour or two, he doesn’t know his girlfriend is off work and will go out of her way to get me. How do you know if it’s love?

Quit trying to invent your god from the scraps of science.

What religious in most of their arguments try to do, is to act as if they reverse-engineering facts of reality, trying to prove a god something or other has to be the only way it could be the way it is. Of course, as an atheist but more importantly a supporter of science and the valid and reliable reason and evidence they work from I know religion is false.

I know the work of reverse engineering facts of reality has largely been done and is being done by science which is why we know about the truth of evolution over creationism in the first place as well as the truth of reality that contradicts or completely challenges any argument the supporters of religion can offer.

I realize they are trying to reoffer thinking that has already been reasonably disregarded as the wishful thinking fantasies it always was. 

My Favorite Put Down of God Believers? 

I was asked what is my favorite put down of believers. Well, I don’t worry about putting anyone down, my goal is offering info to challenge what believers think they know hoping to change their minds. When I post other more offensive stuff to religious ideas it is more for the enjoyment of nonbelievers than attacks at believers, though if it offends believers why care as no one has the right to not be offended. My motto is to attack thinking, and not people. 

Me, I cry inside for all who suffer. You are not alone, I see you. What happens to the ones forgotten harms the humanity of us all. Be a good human do all you can, lives are on the line. How could one of honor do any different? Have you ever made a graduate list? It is an amazing mind and heart-opening gift to you and your humanity. Be emotionally considerate of others. 

I have said it before, although I am a very wise person, the wisest thing I have ever done was to be kind.

Feel free to share anything from me or about me. I hide from no one. I am an open person with an open life. I feel the personal is political. Do you feel like you are liking too many of my posts or think there is some limit to how much you can respond?

I say feel free to be you but be kind. I want to thank all of you for your support that you did give and the acknowledgment you have shown me. I love you all. 

Damn, I fucking love my wife. I scream to the world, “I win” because I know in the letting go I can. If you know of god, what Exemplary behaviors are you doing in the world? Because I am told by you that God is love.

Just a heads up, one of my least favorite things is unkind people. My thinking is strong like a bomb and deep like the ocean as well as so creatively imaginative it is as if a star shining brightly. 

Hug the pain away?

One of the worst things this virus has done to me is it has stolen my ability to hug strangers. I love everyone. I don’t even like handshakes. I always think, what the hell, and have I just bought something?

I want to boldly and openly apologize to the world for my past harm of unkindness, I truly have tried to change. I ask for your understanding, for back then, I was not brave enough to be kind. I hurt people from age 5 to age 22.

I am now 50 and rethinking my long-ago actions. May I be, naturally therapeutic. Sometimes it’s good to get away from people and just breathe without expectations that glorious free being you are. I have worked hard in my life but another true fact is I have basically lived paycheck to paycheck most of my life. I understand working people. 

What’s wrong with the homeless? 

I have been homeless before sleeping in a car at -19. I had only clothes to pile over me to stay warm. I feel deeply for all homeless people. People use to see my face and turn away, they would talk down on me as if wanting human dignity was a task they could not bear, my touch, the vile thing of the disregarded ones. We are not nothing. We are all past it all just another being of dignity. 

Bro, what the hell?

I once got two of the weirdest questions at my atheist-humanist outreach. The first was as a theist inquiring “as an atheist how do you stand up for yourself without god?”

So, it to me is like asking without believing unbelievable things lacking justification for warranted belief, how do you stand up for yourself. Moreover, the first one could not get how you could love or believe in yourself without god. And the other as an atheist what is your opinion on spousal abuse?

The second theist did not think without a god I could be moral and not abuse others. So, it to me is like asking without believing unbelievable things lacking justification for warranted belief, how could be moral and not abuse others.

I am floored at just how deluded some believers are about living life free of myths and imagery friends. I tried to set the record straight. I am an atheist-humanist, and I not only believe in good, I wish good for others and to actively do things to promote good. 

How are we not smarter than people of the past?

Look, I found proof of the first religious mythology with both types of general-themed deities now found throughout the world. Sky father and earth mother. So to recap, mommy and daddy. Can’t you see that? The people of the past did not know “science” but they did know, family.

So, to simplify, it as we don’t have three hours for me to fully break it all down for you but thankfully I was prepared enough to through together a three-hour video instead. How sad it is that we now suffer under some ancient dud’s mommy issues. Not me I am a proud supporter of mental health therapy. 

I know I am a high functioning sociopath but I never use it as an excuse to not be kind. 

“I have a sociopath mom and cousin. My mom was pure evil. I can’t believe you are a sociopath. You are such a nice guy.” – Questioner 

My response,  Psychopath is a mental health issue that is in the brain from birth more generally. Only 10% have experienced extreme child abuse. Commonly sociopaths improve by 45 years old after life-experience. So, a young sociopath is likely much more toxic than an older one. But I am referencing a trend not a have too, so take it as my thinking, which is that most of the time this is likely so but no such thing is commonly true about psychopaths, some can get better few may see any need too. Psychopaths know and are aware of their behavior and don’t really care this too can happen in a sociopath but is more likely to be something close to very bad social skills then evil desires to harm others, thus relate more to a biological life long mental health problem. But sociopaths that are generally something related to extreme child abuse as over half commonly lived lives of pain and aggression and the PTSD gift is becoming heartless. 

I scored a #3 and most Psychopaths would be a #1. I could harm lots of people but I would likely do it in overreacting violently then do something like them that they may enjoy hurting others, my issue is wanting to throw a glass at someone for raising their voice to me. If you were kind to me I am generally calm. But scare me and you might get hit as violence is more my second nature. Let me help you understand. You, I am guessing had a fight or too in school, right? My first experience being expelled for fighting was 1 grade. I beat a kid that bit my art with his mouth. He was in the hospital for a bit. 

I have a rage extreme when I fight like your death is my only chance at life so going too far is an ever possibly. My uncle was like me three gang members tried to mug him at an ATM and like I probably could he murdered them all. He is serving time do to what they said was not self-defense as he quickly overpowered them, being crazy strong happens in a few of my family like me. Several of my family are like me but likely either colder and care even less than ai do but lack the abuse to turn them violent as can be easier to me. 

Yes, it is very hard sometimes. I likely care less than you. Most people that take the test that are like you, now I am just guessing in general not as if I actually know you, is 7 to 9. Most counselors would be 8 to 10 commonly and very codependent people are 15 to 20 which 20 is the highest. The top and the high number suffer from feeling too much the bottom makes the world suffer for them in a way but actually, both are in mental health need. 

My response, You don’t see just me you see 20 years of mental health therapy. 

My response, I also have a BA in psychology with sociology, and someone intervention training, and I also want to stop all abuse in the world as I know the harm it still has on my life. It is sad right that I don’t even get my feeling back I lost them as a small child cold, alone, and hiding under the tarp that covered the lumber that he had in our backyard. I explain in a post that may have been when I broke and became not vary caring. 

My issues are lower care thus if angered I could overreact and why I strive to champion kindness. I don’t feel any need to be kind to most people but I know that it is a very honorable thing to do to be kind so I want to be better than my family or my mental health issues, I want to be will to power. So determined that not even being less caring will stop me from caring. My will is that of a Lion. That is one of a few reasons why I call myself the Goth Lion. 

“Thanks for educating me. I’ll share this with you. I have PTSD and have had lots of counseling. When my folks passed away, there weren’t any tears. But when my first dog [and best friend] died I cried my heart out. I could never understand that. . . what it meant about me. But from her I got unconditional love, from my parents I got squat. I never could feel anything for them.” – Questioner 

My response, I appreciate your acknowledgment. I understand quite well how to be cruller but I am a person of honor so I desire to be kind. 

Medical Neglect? 

As a child with parents in a cult, I experienced “Medical Neglect” 

“Medical neglect is defined as a parent or guardian’s failure to provide adequate medical or dental care for a child. This is particularly applied to cases where medical care is needed to treat a specific injury or illness, and lack of that care seriously jeopardizes the child’s health. This can also be applied to instances where the child is in need of psychiatric help or emotional counseling, and the parent or caregiver refuses to provide it. Under law, medical neglect is considered to be a form of child abuse and is therefore illegal. Parents who are accused of medical neglect, or not providing their children with necessary medical care, can be charged with child abuse.” 

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The Tear that Binds

Tears well in the pools of my eyes, slipping free as if a welling from blow demands they move. Then, there they are, slipping over the edge of my eyes, falling with a heaviness that seems to strangle their way down inside me. I feel them sliding down now, a thousand knives of the past sparkle in my mind. Sliding on, I am unraveled with each new drop. Broken free now, they drip off my chin. How long it seems as they rush their way to the earth below. My head swims, throwing me far past this and I see memories flipping past, I am again lost in time… Mom, I will miss you. Love your son… 

Shine Baby Shine! 

I talk openly about my child abuse, not to be salacious but as a form of activism against this harm of our children, and to give hope to other broken kids like me. I am not the thing abuse made, I am a shining star of hope arising from the dark stained postcards of my past. 

May I Help be the Voice of Reason 

Heroes often hide among us until they express their act of bravely. May I too be so brave. I aspire to the heights of courage, supporting radical kindness in an unkind world. But I do so valiantly, knowing that we rise by helping each other. May I be a good human and support radical kindness as a positive proactive way to further real change in the world. If good people do nothing then nothing good may be done. Thus, I am responsible. I never wanted to be the one to work as an activist but a good person cannot sit silently by, doing nothing, when the atheist movement is in such need. 

End child abuse!

One of the lowest memories of my childhood abuse didn’t even involve direct physical abuse. Rather the of the things that hit me the hardest was the deep profound realization that I was not loved by my father. I was less of importance to him than the lumber he has stacked up in the backyard.

I came to this realization, huddled, wet, and shivering. I was starving as usual no food for me until later tonight whenever that is my father got back from picking up my brother and sister from the babysitter. As if a wet dog looking to hid in ant refuge available.

All I was afforded was a one-foot by two-foot space cramped in between the lumber as there was just enough room so I could hide at least a little from the thunderstorms all around.

The water was wet and cold. I am as if holding myself from touching this invading water as if it is not satisfied with my small pitiful attempt at escape. There I sit with the sharp boards ever pushing in my back.

I felt only the hint of a tear as I think about my younger sister and brother somewhere else kept safe, warm, fed… Not for me.

I have to endure this inhumane fate all the while knowing that they are love unlike me. I am the unwanted thing, the problem, the bother. I feel the tears as I realized fully, I am not simply alone I am not loved at all.

I then feel myself, break inside, and I have never been the person I was. I am a survivor of much unkindness and why I so passionately promote it. Please strive to be kind. End child abuse! 

End abuse… Please!

I was starved as a small child but I sought out information on what grasses or other similar things around me were edible. I have eaten grass due to hunger. I have eaten dog food due to hunger.

I ate random berries I thought could be eaten without being sick and I was limited though, I could only forage from the area I was living in of orange county a part of southern California, inner-city California. I cry thinking anyone could do this to any child and sadly that child was me. End abuse… Please!

I hate abuse, the scars others make in a moment, we end up having to wear for a lifetime.

May I not be a silent watcher as millions of children are subjugated almost before their birth let alone when they can understand “thought” or truly use reason logically and it is such vulnerable innocent minds, which religious fanatics are fond of forcibly coercing, compelled, constrained, and indoctrinated in the mental pollution that religion can be.

So my main goal against religion is to fully stop as much as possible forced indoctrination, one could ask but then why do I challenge all adults’ faith? Well, who do you think is doing the lying to children in the first place. End Hereditary religion, if it’s a belief let them the equal right to choose to believe. 

My mom is dead but I don’t believe in any heaven or hell. Live now!!!

I don’t believe in afterlives but if there was such a thing we all go to one heaven as all religions or no religions show similar near-death experiences and only 10% have so-called negative near-death experiences. But from all my studying I have learned that almost all religions today have a shared set of mythology theme connections going back around 7, 000 years ago.

It was spread from 6,000 to 4,000 years ago. Anyway, my point is that they believed in an earth mother and a sky father but even they got that from earlier ideas and mythology originally around 100,000 years ago.

Humans learned somehow or related way from the Neandertals to bury the dead and about something that the humans turned into the persuasion that involves the belief in spirit afterlife. And science has observed children before the age of 7 do seem to be fond of animistic type thinking. I think it is thus natural to believe in spirits and souls. I also understand all this, so I don’t believe it.

“We mourn over what could have been and should have been, and death seals it by saying “this is all it is.” – We mourn over what could have been and should have been, and death seals it by saying “this is all it is” – Debra Van Neste

As I look back on my life it is amazing how much I have changed or become. At 17 years old I was in a world of ever-present danger to react with acts of aggression, even some violence but not on the weak. How wonderful that hardly anyone today can believe such things of me. 

Challenge is Good?

It is just as important to challenge one’s own behavior as to challenge the behavior of others. I don’t generally assume everyone agrees to the facts and that it is often upon me to help them navigate truth. How can we silently watch as yet another generation is indoctrinated with religious faith, fear, and foolishness?

Religion and its’ god myths are like a spiritually transmitted disease of the mind. This infection even once cured holds mental disruption which can linger on for a lifetime. What proof is “faith,” of anything religion claims by faith, as many people have different faith even in the same religion?

When you start thinking your “out, atheism, antitheism or antireligionism is not vitally needed just remember all the millions of children being indoctrinated and need our help badly. Ones who desperately need our help with the truth. Three things are common in all religions: “pseudo-science,” “pseudo-history,” and “pseudo-morality.”

And my biggest thing of all is the widespread forced indoctrination of children, violating their free choice of what to not believe or believe, I hate forced hereditary religion. Religion and its’ god myths are like a spiritually transmitted disease of the mind. This infection even once cured holds mental disruption which can linger on for a lifetime. I am not the thing abuse made, I am a shooting star blazing bright, shining far past, my past.

If you are a religious believer, may I remind you that faith in the acquisition of knowledge is not a valid method worth believing in.

Because, what proof is “faith”, of anything religion claims by faith, as many people have different faith even in the same religion? Do you want what is true or want what you believe without concern for what may actually be true? 

YES, Am I a survivor?  

I fell as you tripped me again and from your hate, I remove myself from such mind and being corruption freely walking into the gates of love so longed for. 

You have not beaten me, you cannot stop me, you don’t want me to live, to thrive, to be all the best I can be but you hate and yet I am still here, a survivor, a full life liver, a thriver, as well as a warrior for kindness and compassion, reaching the care I was rarely offered, as a gift to the ones so desperately oppressed under your harsh gaze.

May we all be free and the positive best we can be, I know I am as best I can. I am here growing stronger every day. Who am I, you ask, I respond loud and proud, I am a survivor and even in these chains from my past, you will not stop me. Sometimes, we need to see the truth, that many people are liars and deniers while claiming they are believers. 

Once we stop seeing the dignity of others we feel free to violate them with impunity. But when dignity is a friend respect has become one’s path. I am a survivor! I am a Thriver! 

Do no Harm and do Help 

10 months ago my step-dad called about my mother who has been very ill and about to die very soon (now dead 10 months). My mom had Alzheimer’s and was unresponsive and lay in bed 24-7. 

I had a rocky time with my mother from her spanking me, then telling my father, and he would spank me again. And she did not stop my father from abusing me either, with her knowing him, and telling on me, anyway, to me, is more harm. 

She also sexually abused me, with excessive enemas and putting her finger in my ass as part of it. Then as she too was being abused by my father she had enough telling us she was leaving. I was so happy I could burst. 

Well, my bubble burst already when she walked out the door leaving me and my younger brother and sister. I was so broken I thought I would die. I had told my sister and brother that my mom told me we were leaving. 

How stupid I was to think her saying she was leaving that we would be going with her. Among us children, we had drawn straws, and How overjoyed I was when my younger brother drew the shortest straw… I didn’t go live with my mom until almost 13 and my abuse from my father got 10 times worse. 

My father even broke my sacrum and tail bone area by spanking me with a 2×4. I was as you would guess a little resentful to them both for a long time but my mother unlike the scum my father is apologized and strived to make amends to me.

So now I am feeling all kinds of feelings from my past. I feel for my mom leaving but I am happy she will go quick. Having Bias Blindness is easy as biases happen without even trying, however, the removing or overcoming of bias takes a lot of work. So I call on the world to: Do no Harm and do Help. 

Be a Champion of Humanity 

Normalize people being nice to you without assuming they wanna sex. I strive to be nice to everyone but out of humanity, not sex seeking. I am not claiming to not have sex needs but it is not why I do kindness. I think people of high character should express humanity as freely as others seem to champion hate. 

I see so many people who fear the plague and yet have a sickness in their humanity that doesn’t bother them at all. I see the ones without fear, the commonly maskless much worse as many champions that sickness of humanity to the depravity that removes all good, not only having a deep sickness in their humanities even than the first but lowly express this same contempt for their own lives. 

Not to mention their profound depths of selfishness/self-centeredness of not caring how their risky behaviors harm us all. 

You can choose to be anything, so please choose to be kind.

(((Warning contains violence, animal harm, and child abuse)))

Here are the three traumatic things my father did to me: 

1. THE CHRISTMAS TREE EVENT 

My extremely religious fanatic father in a fit of rage and religious anger because my mom dared to buy a Christmas tree and celebrate a pagan holiday like Christmas in his godly home, my father took a long hatchet or an ax (I can’t quite remember which) and Chopped up the Christmas tree with lights and ornaments on it and presents under the tree. I was around 6 years old, just to add a reference. I actually thought he was next going to hurt my mom or us too, it was terrifying. I was not sure if someone was going to get killed next, he was in such a religious rage. Then with the strings of lights dragging across the floor and ornaments rolling everywhere, he crammed parts of the tree into our fireplace. All three of us kids and my mom where crying but my mom begged him at too least save the presents, saying we can give them out on a different day, PLEASE. He calmed just a bit for a fleeting moment and conceded to only save them to not waste money. The smell was strong coming from the fireplace with the thick smoke of undried wood and pine nettles in the air. Speaking of pine nettles, they were popping out of the fireplace and starting small poofs of fire on the carpet below. now I feared the house burning as hot as my father’s religious rage. So, then I cried out to him father please put out the fire it is going to cause the carpet to burn and could burn down the house. He turned to look at me with the long hatchet or an ax. As he turned to me I say his eyes and felt cold run through me, as he had an evil glint in his eyes like saying, “what would make that a bad thing” but then he seemed to catch some amount of sanity and started rushing to stop the fire that threatened to kill us all.

2. The End OF THE CAT

My father was mad at my sister and got his bow and arrow, gathering us kids into the back yard to be taught a lesson of following his orders, I was around 8 or 9 years old just for reference. I thought in terror one of us was going to be harmed or killed I feared deeply for my sister. There we were my brother 5 years younger, my sister 2 years younger and me standing in a line my father stood a few feet away. Next, he pulled back the bow and arrow and the terror increased he looked at us all individually, my brother and sister were shaking I told them don’t look as my father said I am now going to shoot my sister’s cat. My sister was screaming, “NO, please don’t kill her” while she closed her eyes tight to not see my father’s inhumanity. My eyes were open while hers were closed then to my horror my father with evil glee shot the cat. It went halfway then the cat took off running, scampering up over the fence and disappeared screaming. My father laughed and I feared and hated him even more than I ever had before. He was a monster.

3. The 2 X 4 SPANKING

I was around 7 or 8 years old just for reference. My father and his friends were at the table. I was playing under the table because they were avoiding me, and I wanted them to play they had been reading the bible for hours and I had nothing to do. My extremely religious fanatic father was a would not let us have almost any toys nor could we listen to the radio if it was not his religious shows nor tv at all but one hour a week for a nature show called Mutual of Omaha’s Wild Kingdom. Nor could we go to a friend’s house or have friends over either as he wanted to ensure nothing not religious occurred. A side note we did not celebrate any holidays nether was a big deal made on our birthdays either as my father said all that takes away from glorifying god and acting if a human was in some way special. Back to me under the table, I started taping the men on the legs then scampering away so they could not get me. Doing this I only little more than a few hand swats. They were too busy reading bible verses. So, I started hitting them in the legs than one in the crotch. I did not realize how much that hurt I was just playing rough to be noticed. The man yelped and stood up my father asked what happened he said your sun hit my crotch but don’t worry about it he is just a kid I don’t think he was trying to hurt me he has been hitting our legs playing with us for attention.

My father said no he must learn, and I am going to hurt him, so he never does that again. He grabbed my arm hard pulling me into the garage saying I am going to spank you good raging with anger. He had a long wooden paddle he hit me with almost every other day. He was out of control he had me pull down my pants and bend over. I was crying and shaking in terror. He hit me hard a few times then slammed the paddle into a worktable breaking it. I then thought ok it’s over I was punished and now he broke the paddle. No, he was far from done hitting me he had just started. He was even angrier as it broke. Saying don’t think you are now going to get it easy or something like that. He said that old paddle was too soft of a wood good thing I have been working on an Oak one but haven’t had a chance to test it out yet so you of the three children get to experience it first. I was trembling and already in pain from the hits he had already one. I cried please no but he haply hit me, again and again, each time switching to hit the table with a terrorizing crack saying see this is way better wood. I don’t know how many times he did this, 5 to 8 times, I guess. Then it cracked and was broken too from hitting the worktable. He was even angrier his beloved new paddle. I was sobbing and falling to the ground in pain and fear, thinking what now! He said to get back up there I am not done with you yet. I was scared out of my wits what was he going to use now then I saw his eyes land on a baseball bat size of 2×4.

My heart dropped. He said I am going to use this 2×4 on you and then you will get what you deserve. He hit me and I could hear it cutting the air all the way until it slammed into my rear and upper legs the 2 or so times before my hands went up as the pain was so extreme, like being burned, This was until I in terror put my hands over my rear to shield myself. It was involuntary to protect myself as much as I could. Then the 2×4 slammed into my hands and they almost went numb with pain. He was enraged, saying get your hands out of there then swung higher I will just hit somewhere else that is when with a crack he broke my tailbone and end of my sacrum in my lowest part of my back at the end of my spine it was the most excruciating pain I had ever experienced in my life I feel to the floor in sheer agony shaking like a dying thing. He looked down at me holding the 2×4 in his hand like a bat saying I guess now you have had enough I hope you learned your lesson. I to this day at 48 still feel pain in my tailbone and end of my sacrum. I have had to pain shots to help elevate this, but I have never healed right.    

Positive Parenting and Atheist Parenting Info

Spanking Debate: Positive vs. Negative Discipline

I am Anti Spanking

Father is an “F” word

Ho Father…

I want you to understand what I went through and how your parenting affected me and what it produced. So you can understand what I want is your shame and what evil you need to make amends for.

You may have been my father but you were never my DAD.

I felt fear as a child because of you.

I had to steal to eat as a child because of you.

I felt stupid as a child because of you.

I had to eat dog food as a child because of you.

I had to go to the bathroom outside like a dog as a child because of you.

I felt shame as a child because of you.

I had to break into my own house as a child because of you.

I had no friends as a child because of you.

I was made unsafe as a child because of you.

I felt unlovable as a child because of you.

I felt everything I did was wrong as a child because of you.

I felt mistrust as a child because of you, wrong as a child because of you.

I was humiliated for who I was as a child because of you.

I felt alone because you had babysitters for my brother and sister and not me as a child because of you.

I learned to value hate over love as a child because of you.

I was abused as a child because of you.

I was neglected as a child because of you.

I was abandoned as a child because of you, you took me to a store and intentionally left me.

I was misused made to be your masseur and slave as a child because of you.

I felt I could never be good enough as a child because of you.

I was made into a secondary dad to my siblings and punished for their wrongs as a child because of you.

I never knew love from my father but I did understand hurt as a child because of you.

I lost my sweet innocence as a child because of you.

I feared life more than death at times as a child because of you.

Instead of looking into my father’s eyes and seeing love, I saw selfish darkness.

You committed many sins against me but most of all your biggest problem is you are selfishness. I think that has more to do with why you committed such atrocities and have the problems still today.

so FUCK You for fucking up me…

In my life, I was rapidly abuse, spanked, hit physically, lacked shelter and medically neglected, not properly clothed, emotionally and psychologically abused, abandoned, severely neglected, starved, etc. etc. etc.

I have overcome a lot, had much counseling but I never got to say FUCK YOU ex-father. You didn’t win. I have….

YOUR ex-son

p.s. This is very heartfelt and raw for me, it is me talking to the fucker that was my father but never a dad. I have not talked to him intentionally for about 20-30 or so years…

“Sometimes we just do what is right even if it is hard but being kind in this way is a gift to your own humanity.” 

There is only one way to become a philosopher?

“Philosophy (‘love of wisdom’) is the study of general and fundamental questions about existence, knowledge, values, reason, mind, and language. Philosophical methods include questioning, critical discussion, rational argument, and systematic presentation.”  ref

Instead of reading other philosophers to become a philosopher, I read the subjects explaining each philosophy then took or borrowed from the subject ideas. I then arranged it or remade it into something all mine.  I was always different and you looked down on me. 

My mom’s passing ignites the theater of my mind where my childhood is stuck on repeat. 

I knew I was really different by high school in how I thought and what things I valued even though I needed years more therapy at that point. And this positive difference was there for all to see, even to the point others voiced how they had noticed. At my school in southern California, the other students would separate into segregated type groups of similar people for either race, music, class, high achievers, artists-writers-creative types, drugs used, gang affiliation, band people, or sports. I interacted with them all. I never cared for the world’s labels all I ever see is fellow dignity beings just like me and for this, I have been shunned as odd. 

What we do not understand we could come to fear. Left unchecked what we fear we often learn to hate. What we hate we may seek to destroy! We should seek to love diversity or accept differences, not simply fear or hate people because we think they are different or we do not understand them. People are not their beliefs; people deserve dignity and a human right to exist. Whereas beliefs do not have, any dignity owed them nor any right to exist. I do not nor will not respect faith, gods, or religions.

However, I do strive to respect people even ones who may be believers in faith, gods, or religions. Simply, I value the sanctity of “human rights” and the dignity of every person to self-define their beliefs and do not attack people because of what they believe. I say attack thinking not people and work towards understanding and respect even with those we disagree; although, this understanding and respect does not fully extend to those whose behaviors that violate people’s dignity and human rights. 

God-Belief in some general ways can be summed up ontologically as a proposed non-empirical-being. Some are further attached to yet more non-empirical proposed things, attributes or behaviors, and events, even thinking that somehow are attributed to this proposed non-empirical-being. And this is proposed non-empirical-being is offered for our potential choice of what to believe with proposed non-empirical proposed support as if this is sound empirical evidence. And all I think is, bro, do you know any science, and wow, this is going to take a few minutes? 

My life story is not comfortable to hear and was much worse to be the person made to be there. Say what is hard to hear, and say what is true. Because through wisdom, I will understand, just what to do.  

Let me not forget to say please get counseling if you have struggles. It is not a sign of weakness to have feelings, rather it is that caring feelings we all wish and hope will be driving motivations for those in power because if instead, they seek the power itself we all will suffer inhumanely. 

I am ever aware words matter they can build castles to protect or dungeons to torment. Thus I think of all I say critically. Such as what we write, would you feel proud of your support for a victim, or was it just advice-giving to someone not in a safe dynamic for offering different outlooks? Never think what would an ethical board say or my next in power. I would like to think as if my life was out for the world to see, naked, bare, every and every action matters, everything including every word. I am not asking for an answer as this is my philosophy pondering to improve my own self-mastery.

We don’t like to think on things that feel bad but to get better, that is just the work one has to do. I would say I would stop being so didactic but my mom just died last night and I am a bit emotional. I see now my path is a friend to all. I am beyond survival or even thriving I am at the precipice of an enriching human flourishing. 

As to my victim/survivor status, I often say, “I am, will-to-power”  

“This statement if you don’t know is a prominent concept in the philosophy of Friedrich Nietzsche, describing what Nietzsche may have believed to be the main driving force in humans. Alfred Adler incorporated the will to power into his individual psychology. This can be contrasted to the other Viennese schools of psychotherapy: Sigmund Freud’s pleasure principle (will to pleasure) and Viktor Frankl’s logotherapy (will to meaning). Each of these schools advocates and teaches a very different essential driving force in human beings. Macht, within Nietzsche’s philosophy, closely tied to sublimation and “self-overcoming”, the conscious channeling of Kraft for creative purposes.” ref 

I would just call it a value-driven life, or living and breathing axiological awareness, or simpler to understand one could say that is the embodiment of full self-mastery of one so ego-removed that they truly a friend to the world… 

Here is a poem I wrote at 17 years old, I think. 

“Change” 

Sitting back I realized all the bad of which I have done. 

I am sorry to the world for I am not a mean man. 

I am sorry for all the lives hurt by me or any lives I could have ruined for I am not an evil man. 

I am thankful at my willingness to change. 

Sitting back I now realize all the bad I have done but I can change, and I will. 

Long ago I had to forgive someone who allowed me to be abused, myself. 

As a survivor of extreme child abuse. I am deeply offended when people say that I must forgive my vile abusers and tormenters. Wrong. I don’t owe those who violated me anything. I am, will to power. 

My number one complaint about my experience with mental health therapy, where I believe they failed extremely, was not creating an empowering domain for the victim of extreme child abuse, they were being entrusted to. To me, and I speak with a BA degree in psychology, a natural therapist nature, humanist drive, and a humanitarian heart wishing kindness for the world, understand that the best way is to see the client and therapist interactions as a form of letting a person create a safe place in themselves.

Understanding that our relationship with them is not as overseers but as teachers, inspiration providers new outlook developers, and as always just another fellow dignity being. One worthy of respect and honor. We need ethics and humanity as our guiding light. We are not to just be a listing ear, nor just an advice giver but rather an impossibility remover. 

To me, your driving goal as a mental health care worker of child victims of abuse is to strive to be, forever, for them a dragon killer: in other words an impossibility remover. An impossibility remover expresses a “Value Conscientiousness” whereas, a Value-blindness can give rise to Sociopathic evil. 

To truly grasp my axiological thinking, expresses a “Value Conscientiousness”, you have to read: “The New Science of Axiological Psychology” (Value Inquiry Book 169) (Hartman Institute Axiology Studies). I hope one day my axiological theorizing is added to the Value Inquiry Books of acknowledgment.  

As a skilled anarchist theorist I deeply understand undue power dynamics as something to be ever aware of. Thus I see there is no such thing as a true leader that is not known as such by everyone else. Because it is no leader that simply demands such a title. 

As a survivor of extreme child abuse. I am deeply offended when people say that I must forgive my vile abusers and tormenters. Wrong. I don’t owe those who violated me anything. I am will to power. 

Beware artists like me, we mix with all classes of people. lol 

Leadership should be earned by exemplary example, never just given away.  Leadership, like respect, needs to be earned, not conferred. Almost all my thinking is my own or influenced by my wife (Shayna Marie AtHope), my best friend.

But if I had to pick something that helped me really get moving on my path now it is three books that added in helping to change my life: Emotional intelligence (how to become the most amazing person), Becoming Naturally Therapeutic (how to be therapeutic as a way of life in everything you do) and The Soul of Liberty (on universal ethical standards). 

Marquis Amon: “It is in my opinion that Damien only needed to forgive himself in terms of reflection. That this statement is about knowing what he knows now, and who he was in the past. He is a champion of those who are abused(among many things) and he may felt he at least in part failed himself. Yet your abuse was part of the reason you became who you are.

“When I saw abuse, I was glad it wasn’t me. Now, I don’t want it to be anybody.” That is what I think he means, failing to stand up for himself. Yet it wasn’t his fault, as a child. We must protect our children, everyone…It is that we can not change the past, he needed to close the door at that chapter of his life, I think.” 

Surprise, it’s just Me. 

What I mean generally by my saying, “Long ago I had to forgive someone who allowed me to be abused, myself,” relates to when people, unthinkingly, tell me, I have to “forgive!” I say I did long ago. then they ask well then why don’t you talk to your father if you forgave him? I say, oh, now I see your confusion, I only forgave one person in all this vileness as they were not at any way at falt so they needed my support so I have done all I can to earn that person’s respect.

Because I had before like others, unjustly judged him and despised him as well as looked down on him unjustly. They ask well who was that one special person that was there for you when no one else even carried? I take a deep proud slow breath as if the end of a life’s long journey in this question. It seems to shine in my eyes as I lovingly say, ME. 

You dare, ask me why I care? FUCK, someone damn well, had to… 

In an anarchist philosophy group I am in someone asked us as actual anarchists, how do we think of anarchism? 

Here is my response:  

“The deep love of humanity and the humility to realize that I am just another dignity being like everyone. It, to me, is humanity living ethically and humanitarianly. It is the honest acceptance that no one actually owns the Earth thus we must share it communally and fairly as possible.” 

May I be so brave that I can be kind, even though the unkindness I experienced. Even pat my limitations and my ego. May I be different, may my care be as if a cup running over. May I champion love stronger than the hate of the world. May my life not just be the movement of change, may I inspire a new set of caring deep thinkers that demand a better world for us all.  Life is short, so be as kind as you can. 

I am the Goth Lion! 

There is nothing weak in me, rather I choose the honored-filled life of ones that are kind, my true heroes, I love you all. My humanity champions of the world’s hope, may we all be like you, brave enough to be kind. I am no one special, just a candle in the dark. 

I have more respect for someone penniless than one with millions that treat others like shit. I do not give a shit about your illusionary status you think others are classed into. I never followed that dumb shit as a child, why the hell would I welcome it now? Hi there, I am just your friendly neighborhood anarchist-humanist. So, I guess sometimes you refer to me as a globalist or utopian humanitarian. The call of freedom, equality, justice, morality, mutual aid, and humanity does not lessen in value due to how attainable they are. 

My people are the kind. 

Value-blindness Gives Rise to Sociopathic evil. What is so special about Kindness anyway? Once, I was so foolish, value blind, I added harm, and now, how different I see things, with a value consciousness. I am among the treetops they can’t touch me now for I fly free I love you all but I am just me. May we hear the cry of the silent suffer in oppression, free them now.

Kindness my sturdy tower my breath of life in the final hour. Kindness is my favorite lover but let us not forget she is also my best friend. The smile of a life lived in love shines across my face as I smile I remember how far I have come. Kindness is king. I would take on the emotional weight of the world, just to save one child from abuse. 

You have been lied to, all your devalued life full of value attacks is untruth, because the truth is, YOU ARE VALUABLE. 

Can you believe that only 15 years ago, in an atheist meet-up in Southern California, I was told by the group leader, in front of everyone, well about 8 people I think. He was talking down to me, like I don’t have any value at all. I was just taking up space. And that I needed to stop talking so much as no one really cares what crazy ideas you think. Did I say, so you now speak for the group? How is this not seen as a problem?

Then he said, with a sarcastic shrug, saying, well everyone has had enough of Damien, right??? Several long seconds went by in cold silence. I was dismissed. I then head, well actually I really do enjoy hearing Damien. Then he grew upset. How dare, anyone, defend me… Everyone just looked around. I said. I appreciate your time and now it is time for me to go. I decided I would do it all on my own. 

As always, I will be the better person and strive to stay kind. 

Animals, I love them all and they love so much better than humans.  I know I am a high-functioning sociopath but I never use it as an excuse to not be kind.  And, just for the record here, I am a proud Anti-Fascist. Take care. If you were taken to Court, would you be convicted of a life lived in love?  

When I was young I was not shown the beauty of kindness. Now that I understand, I can’t imagine a beautiful life without it.  How odd a world we live in, where I have been ridiculed and made fun of, simply because I want a kind world.  Hard times can take a long time to heal and are no good to feel, but they have shown me the need to help and the importance of care.  Even though the valiant have fallen and the darkness is all but closing in, may love, hope, and kindness always win. The world has many paths.

These paths may be built with different levels of permanency — leveled, paved roads and built-up sidewalks will last centuries if we suddenly ceased to exist (which I hope we don’t), while paths through the forest or grasslands will grow over and disappear, if not used and maintained. What kind of trace will you leave? I, myself, plan on changing the world.  I will be forever honored that my best friend is Damien Marie AtHope. I love people who can see the value of others. If you could change the world, wouldn’t YOU? 

My vote, if anyone is asking, is that we give back all native lands, but I know, I scared you, how about we start with Mount Rushmore. I sure want to see what amazing thing they will do with it. Well, as soon as possible, or when you are not busy illegally colonizing. I just hope they don’t treat us as shamefully as we sadly still do, wait, that fucking pisses me off. FUCKING stop that shit now. Now, where was I??? Oh, yea, I am so ever thankful and happy to let everyone off the edge of their seat but Native peoples of the Americas not only have much we need to humbly learn from as we live on their land don’t you know.

I think it would only be fitting too. I don’t know, find something great from all the wonderful things in the many diverse tribal cultures. The tribal people of this land are the original, do remember, hint it’s not a white man yelling at a person of color, that fool telling them to go home his red gat shining in the sun claims to want to make America great again, so I assume he means return it to tribal peoples. I even bet they give us a better deal on rent than the capitalists. But who am I? Just an anarchist-humanist. 

Religious Freedom, I think… 

I laugh to myself at people who don’t think tribal people could keep us safe. Well, I don’t know, Do you remember,  what the central issue is? Did they kick you off your land, then remove more of them and call it yours? I know it all sounds scary but kids it is real and needs to be amended. I don’t know how we think we have done with two world wars. I look forward to it. But people will say, that is too much. I only think, you mean like when we took their children and cut their hair against their will.

They had their stories, language as well as couture, even their religion, by similar extremists of the Christian faith who demand their, and only their, rolly-polly book, and how it should be in school. You, need to remember this atheist, as it is the thing I think of when I hear some angered hatemonger claims desires to make this a nation under their god. But yeaaa, religious freedom, I think… 

 Yeah, I am mad, thank you very much. People! Enough said, so I can still be kind. Being kind in an unkind world to unkind people treating me unfairly is a true sign of my heights of bravery.  May I be brave enough to reach for the glory of kindness. 

Who gives a fuck? 

Small abused hand rising to become a fist, I grab the mike. Well, me of course. I am brave enough to be kind. As all people of high honor do. How about you? 

Empower the whole fucking world, PLEASE, FUCKING PRETTY PLEASE. This is just a note for you to keep. It is now for you to give it away. I apologize for my disruption to your normal program, I will let you back monaurally, a message of the heart from your friendly neighborhood anarchist. Hi, I am Damien Marie AtHope: “I think I may be a kindness-radical.” and “I love seeing long-oppressed people rise.” 

I am, the mighty, Hammer of Truth, crashing DOWN! 

I am always the one rejected and disrespected? I love when philosophers, say to me, I have to read, XYZ, whoever, or you don’t understand it is very confusing so if you are struggling it is understandable, everyone does. I first think, speak for yourself please, don’t tell me what I can’t do, especially if you have never even asked me. 

People simply see a big freak and write me the hell off. I never said philosophy was hard. Actually, it is to bring as it is just too easy if you really want to know. it is like children play to me and I am so sure about this I would challenge anyone on reason. 

So I am sure you can imagine how I feel. Inside I am rumbling, only to make me think, why, every time, do these philosophers, Muther-fuckers, invented. How could he not know I have invented several different normative as well as theoretical types of very “sound” philosophy of my own, DON’T you, fucking dare, talk down to me! 

How dare you, shame the innocent? I have never been mad at the simple fact of someone, with high wealth, opposite of how I never feel, not, outraged by the anguish of the poor. I am crying “Out loud” to the humanity of the world, to please be better. 

Your Sexual Harassment

I was sexually harassed by a gay male supervisor. They tried to just blow it off saying I was not some woman made uncomfortable I am tough and should just shrug it off as not a big deal.

I felt like they were joining in on his abuse of me by trying to silence me. I said he did things you agree if I was a woman would get a man fired but because I am not a woman, I don’t get the same care response?

They said, ok, we will suspend him for a week. That was it back to work. But I became the new joke for other supervisors thinking my being harassed sexually by a gay man was the greatest laugh ever.

Thus, I was violated yet another time, yet I tell others about my experience, and some don’t seem to care either as I am seen as a man and men should not complain.

I act in ways people think mean I am gay or bisexual. I am not gay or bisexual, but I do understand that due to my gender being male and female I am believed to be gay or bisexual.

I am actually “intersex-genderqueer” as my gender and only present as male. I act as a male due to how I look and because I am not gay or bisexual. I only am attracted to cis-women. So, it is easier for me, to hide out as a male to avoid harassment for who I am.

You do what? 

I create art, memes, quotes, writings, blogs, Facebook pages & groups, YouTube videos, and Public speaking events and/or activism events. Also, I create video chats with Intelligent/thoughtful people who are kind and are doing good things in the world as well as video chats with atheists or nontheists of course; to share ideas, debate/dialog, or for empowerment. And I create videos with theists or agnostics to share ideas, debate/dialog, or provide a place for learning/teaching.

Why act like that? 

I am an activist and teaching in public is part of that endeavor. I wish to be “Servant Leader,” it really resonated with me and is a similar desire I have as a leader hoping to add other leaders and to be a student as well wanting to be a life learner open to expand and learn as well as put forth efforts to teach. I dig good people who are kind and want to help others, like me; together we will aid in building a flourishing humanity, we rise by helping each other. I like that kind of people as contacts they are helping make the world better as I try to do.

Who am I? 

I am virtuous to the vulnerable and champion justice, so valiantly, as I have experienced the hateful lash of unkindness and wish to champion its opposite, radical kindness in an unkind world, a sigh of true bravery. It seems that there are two main types of philosophers: Thinkers and Specialists, and I have always thought of myself as a thinker. 

Long-Distance Traveler?

To me, the wise person sees themselves as clear as they strive to understand the minds of others. Inner seeking and inner standing in one’s own power only happens when they stop EGO or Fear from being our guides, because they actually, block our paths. I think this is found when we are both a life learner as well as a life teacher, be both. 

What are you working on right now, inside?

I am working on just being. I also want to accept others who are also trying to just be. It is always a risk vs reward for most if not all relationships. I welcome understanding as well as respect my own ignorance and champion what I have learned, with the goal of helping others if I can. 

I have been banned twice from LinkedIn once for challenging a Christian (reported by him, 15 years teaching Christians to defend their faith) making fun of an atheist. So I just said would you like to try that with a real atheist? And I got banned for harassment. lol Then the other ban was for looking at too many profiles, too fast. Lol

Hi Slave 

God-talk has always just been the master talking out of your mouth. How disgusting the idea that a god would want a slave rather than my freedom. We all must stop being the master’s slave sheep.  Theism seems to deeply relate to a kind of epistemic arrogance, fortified by ignorance they call faith.

I ask YOU world: “Are you the Master’s slave-sheep.” Any path that leads to me as a slave is never going to be something I ever willingly choose. I am free, you are free, are you not? Anyone who challenges my freedom deserves my wrath, not my love, right? 

ENSLAVED: “if I don’t have a master, who’s slave will I be.” I want everyone free, don’t you? Or are you in support of the master and welcome being a slave? To the person questioning, I just advise you to read more and research, I hope you will be guided to the right path. 

I am a stranger in a strange land. called humanity because I actually don’t welcome being a slave. How about you? Are you a free person or a slave? Or “Are you the Master’s slave-sheep.” 

I don’t expect people to be me or think like me, I only demand people in my life are good humans. 

“The use of “demand” is strong. IMO. Unconditional love implies (in a humanistic approach) that you do all with no expectations. IMHO, that will also lead you to no disappointment. It’s your life, choose wisely.” 

Well, if someone connected, to me, expresses views that I consider only from a bad person (racism sexism, homophobia, etc.), I will remove you from my life or if online I will often just block such people. I sometimes try reasoning with them first but not always. I never try to use the term “Unconditional” as it is not reasoned to me generally as it is used, rather if I were to use this idea it would be limited and not globalized, as it should not imply to care not on harm behaviors, nor to me should and love be a free pass to not hold people accountable for actions.

EGO is often the wall, that blocks our freedom.

I am working on just being. I also want to accept others who are also trying too just be. It is always a risk vs reward for most if not all relationships. I welcome understanding and respect my own ignorance and champion what I have learned, with the goal of helping others if I can. I am in love with me, if others like me too, great, and if not, I still love me. 

Trust Reason? 

Is there such a thing as reasonable or unreasonable trust? How do you know that? How justified is your thinking, in general? I mean the opinion that your mind just thought of at reading my question?  

Was it truly from what you think or was it an idea others pushed on you, is it truly as accurate as you now believe? Would you believe it so fully to choose to try and demonstrate its errors in thinking if you could? Now can I trust that you will be honest with yourself? I know you have lied to yourself before, haven’t you? Don’t lie… lol 

What would you say makes a truth a fact? Trust? Or something else? 

I say it is always is reason and evidence, that we are even somewhat able to justify any truth, rightly claimed as true. Don’t you agree, or if not explain fully how you don’t use reason and evidence?  

Reality? YEAH 

I welcome all to the world of the real, as I like deep thinking to the point others are also inspired to think on their own. You are already doing great in asking questions and being open as the mind that questions, seeking the truth, is indeed a free mind in this area. I even use thinking others don’t like, as a tool for good. 

Non-leaders vs Real leaders 

Non-leaders are EGO (self-focused) and power-driven but real leaders are other-focused and empowerment-driven. Now, it is my welcoming correction that distills my thinking to the purity available to reach reason.  

Welcoming correction plays a major role. Can’t improve if you aren’t willing to change what you’re already doing. I just want to be a good human, kind to all, and as of benefit to the world as possible, as humanity is worth giving my life for. 

I may never know just how beautiful you are, until you are kind. Are you a good person? If so how would we know with what demonstrable features available to all? So you are unsure if rape is a good thing? You are unsure if loving others is good? Is it possible to be unsure if we are doing good feeding the starving? We all know what is true and what is good! So are you a Non-leader or a Real leader? 

Lesson One  

How to think like a mutualistic communitarian anarchist thinker:  

So. My wife is screaming ants!!! We are as if invaded by an ant army. The march in line from the outside door power matching their little feet to our cat’s food bowl and water dish.  

She said do we need an exterminator??? I calmly say no. she said do we need “kill bate” as going the store now is scary, it is like that walking dead show you like. I say no again. She said what can we do???  

I calmly point to the dry dead grass outside. I then say see all the food and water for our fellow dignity beings the ants is gone. I said hurry, our fellow dignity beings need our help. She looked at me a little odd??? I said put both food and water for our follows and they will be more than happy to stay outside. She said but how about this line in the house???  

Do we kill them? I ask back, “should one dignity being needlessly killed another fellow dignity being and still feel they love kindness?” I said, “we don’t have to kill even one. Just put the food outside and they will all follow it back outside.”  

Problem over and no dignity being was needlessly killed, as is good for one action… Needlessly to say, this morning only one ant remained walking aimlessly. 

Lesson Two 

Message two from your friendly neighborhood anarchist, NO, I will not do what the hell you tell me, I am not even part of your bloated laughable, capitalism, if not for the social evil you speak. Yeah, I see you, the ugly hate violating humanity, they darken all hopes of the true heights of human flourishing, and god, damn it, I will not fucking, stan for it. I am taking this world of unkindness, the fuck down. I know, all my champions of freedom, know, there is no peace in hurting humanity. We the fuck are done. We are coming to change it all. I, fear, I may receive not much better treatment than many champions of kindness before me, I fucking love you all. You give me strength. May I let kindness be my teacher. 

Lesson Three

#AntiFaStrong

My, People, are the Kind! #supportourtroops

Message three, from your friendly neighborhood anarchist, The people are the entire humanity, live in love now, every moment is so precious, is but wasted in words that hurt and hearts that break. this travesty must end not. How do you not feel shame, I am beyond amazed.

But, I am nothing, I am the silent watcher, I am just a candle in the dark, I am like the water. I may flow strong now but that sad day will come that I too must leave you. But don’t cry for me, don’t look in the trees, I will not be a star nor anything but my actions now.

Act as if your life matters, I know I sure do. And never, forget, always be kind above it all. as to those who can offer such an amazing gift to the world, my heart goes out to you. May I be kind enough to be counted among the likes of you? My, people, are the kind. May we all be good humans. We rise by helping each other. 

No Philosopher, I? 

I am good at philosophy but this is not due to anyone philosopher than my wife. I don’t read any of them not even one. They are cool I would assume but bore to me and I get philosophy better than some Academic philosopher professors as they have to remember some idea, person, or book to motivate or generate their ideas.

I am so naturally creative, I could make it up new every time with not too much trouble, as I think naturally as a philosopher as I am a deep thinker not as a choice but as an internal addictive compulsion to know and understand everything I wish to. As I am will to power. I traveled until I lost the encapsulation of my upbringing’s limitations. 

Why be kind in an unkind world? 

I am opening my heart to everyone, be kind. This may sound foolish to you now but I think you will one day change. This call for kindness is the kind of life message from one dignity being to another, be kind. We only have one very short life, how proud I am that I can be counted among the brave. You know the ones that saw a cold world and only wanted to make it shine.

If you don’t get that then it’s just not the point in your journey yet because I will tell you. There will come a day that you remember this interaction of one genuine heart to another. The most beautiful thing in the world. Take care. I am rooting for you. For I am an impossibility remover. 

Please be kind. 

When people demand of me to give account for why they should even value kindness? I pause, breathe Damien, they know not what they do. An alarm is screaming in my mind. I emotionally run for the doors. I wisely think I am hearing a message here. I see what is right I see what is true. I think if someone came up to you and demanded you to defend loving any child. I think would have to emotionally step the fuck back, before any of that yucky gets on my nice humanity.

But I am the sturdy tower, the silent one of a thousand stories that can’t seem o get others to value his call for kindness. how truly odd this world is. And there I am all dressed up with nowhere to go. But as always, it is my plight in life, to be the better human, and I stay kind. May I be brave enough to reach for the glory of kindness. Please be kind. Being kind in an unkind world to unkind people treating me unfairly is a true sign of my heights of bravery. Sorry, I am just Dreaming of another world.  

Bro, what the hell? 

I once got two of the weirdest questions at my atheist-humanist outreach. The first was as a theist inquiring “as an atheist how do you stand up for yourself without god?” So, it to me is like asking without believing unbelievable things lacking justification for warranted belief, how do you stand up for yourself. Moreover, the first one could not get how you could love or believe in yourself without god. And the other as an atheist what is your opinion on spousal abuse? 

The second theist did not think without a god I could be moral and not abuse others. So, it to me is like asking without believing unbelievable things lacking justification for warranted belief, how could be moral and not abuse others. I am floored at just how deluded some believers are about living life free of myths and imagery friends. I tried to set the record straight. I am an atheist-humanist, and I not only believe in good, I wish good for others and to actively do things to promote good. 

Don’t let ANGER become an unethical behavior. 

I want to make a difference in the world and try to bring hope and new thinking to others where I can. I also wish to champion kindness as often as I champion challenge in thinking and hope for wisdom as much as reason or doubt. I see it is easier to break others down than help them see a way back up.

More than just my disbelief in religion and gods or all woo-woo, I hope people get how much I care about humanity and all the different people who are apart of it. We rise by helping each other. May I be thoughtful and care, as well as seek knowledge and share. May we all be good humans to ourselves and others. 

Big Headed 

Damien, you seem to be good at controlling your ego and not having a big head… Then there is ME, standing there like this, and can only reply, “I hear you,” I do. Although I may struggle through limitations like us all, may I live in a clear understanding of the lifelong need for change. May I be the best person I can be by thinking not of how I compare to others but how I compare to a better me, one better than I have ever been before.

May my search for self-improvement be so shockingly honest and motivated to needed change, that I can embody any needed change. May I aspire to the greatness in the behavior of putting ethics before ego and people before profit. I can and will forever strive for such universal betterment for me and everyone. May I live a life of value… 

I am not a little different, because of extreme neglect, I am a firstborn original mind that the world needs, to help free itself. I am a sociopath, and a genus but also intersex and genderqueer so I also have a humanitarian in me too that is only love. I use my dark skills of people masters but like Hell-boy, I am a demon come to save the world as I, unlike others, am strong beyond anything before. I am a loin and the world will hear my roar forevermore. I lived through a hellish abused filled childhood that has forever created a dark cloud on my mind and thus entire life of PTSD. 

Love the Behavior? 

Love and kindness are best shared. A kind hand helps and does not hurt, just as a kind heart loves and does not hate. Love is a behavior of care, not harm as if one does harm it is an expressive act obviously lacking care.